34 SEPTEMBER 2023 WorldWide Drilling Resource® The Un-Comfort Zone II by Robert Evans Wilson, Jr. It Takes Courage to Change I’ve written in this column about being afraid of going to school during my first three years because I was bullied by older boys. By fourth grade, however, the bullying subsided; probably because I’d learned how to avoid the upper-class students. Unfortunately, it picked back up again in fifth grade because my own classmates started bullying me. This time I wasn’t afraid, I was angry; and after a few boxing lessons from my dad, I developed the courage to stand up to the bullies and fight back. Before the school year was over, the bullying had ended. Sixth grade was peaceful; my state of consciousness had improved. I even made a new best friend - with one of the boys who bullied me the year before. “It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.” ~E.E. Cummings I’ve also written in this column that I was bullied by my mother, which I believe set me up to be bullied at school. For decades after fifth grade, I believed I had gotten past being bullied, but 14 years ago, I realized I was still being bullied - this time by my lovers. At the time, I recognized I was attracting a certain type of woman; I was the common denominator; I had a pattern, and the problem resided in me. I was determined to discover the source of the problem and solve it. So, I set out on an intentional journey of self-discovery. “Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage.” ~Anais Nin Along the journey, I became interested in learning more about state of consciousness. For several years I kept hearing people say, “You will achieve success when you raise your state of consciousness,” but I didn’t understand what it meant. Then at the end of a romantic relationship, I went into a deep depression that actually made me physically ill. Getting so sad I became lovesick, crystallized the concept for me - except it was in reverse - I recognized I had lowered my state of consciousness. I was grieving. I had failed yet again, and I was becoming apathetic. I knew time would heal the wounds of my heartbreak, but a question remained, “How do I raise my state of consciousness?” As I have explored consciousness, I’ve written several times about the powerful emotion of fear. How it is a survival mechanism; that it can be manipulated; and how knowledge - not courage - is its opposite. I have also written about dealing with change because many people - myself included - fear change. Sometimes we are forced to change, but most of the time we avoid it until we can see a convincing benefit. The bottom line is, when we fear change, it will take courage to change. On my journey of self-discovery, I am learning about shadow work and inner child work; how we sometimes repress trauma we experienced as young children; how we can dissociate from the memories of situations that caused pain, suffering, or fear. I’ve also come to understand that because we were so dependent on our parents for survival when we were children, we sometimes develop behaviors and beliefs which pleased an abusive caregiver, but hinder our growth and maturity as adults. Behaviors and beliefs which helped us survive as children become buried in our subconscious and continue to guide us as adults even though we are no longer faced with the same dilemmas. We think, “If I don’t do what Mommy or Daddy says, they won’t love me anymore and I will die.” I quickly learned in my home that only my mother was allowed to have emotions. I was taught to repress my anger; I was not even allowed to cry (see my article: A Case against Spanking). “The most courageous act is still to think for yourself. Aloud.” ~Coco Chanel Recently, a friend recommended the book Power vs. Force by David R. Hawkins, M.D., Ph.D. Dr. Hawkins was a psychiatrist who created an index which listed emotions on a rising scale of states of consciousness. He placed courage as the midpoint between the negative and positive emotions. From the bottom to the top, his list of emotions include: shame, guilt, apathy, grief, fear, desire, anger, pride, courage, neutrality, willingness, acceptance, reason, love, joy, peace, and enlightenment. I was excited to see these various states of consciousness ranked in an easy-to-understand order, helping me to better understand this challenging concept. “The secret to happiness is freedom . . . And the secret to freedom is courage.” ~Thucydides As I have looked back through my life, I realized I have experienced various states of consciousness which were mostly in the negative range. However, when I look back to fifth grade, I see I advanced from fear to anger, to courage, and finally peace. Finding the courage to stand up for myself was liberating. Today, I am drawing on my courage to do shadow and inner child work. I hope to uncover the source of my limiting beliefs and behaviors so I can change them. In the meantime, I will continue to study the concept of state of consciousness. I would like to find peace again, and maybe even joy and enlightenment. Robert Robert is an innovation/change speaker, author, and consultant. He works with companies that want to be more competitive through innovation and with people who want to think more creatively. Contact him via e-mail to michele@worldwidedrillingresource.com WOW, IT WORKED! 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